When you get an internship in a company that does mainly finances, you never even start to think that one day you will need to be able to talk to a number of people, clients, partners and so on, staying cool, staying talkative and staying on-topic. You are lucky to be given a chance and you do not bore yourself with thinking about the future. I should know, this is how I started.
It was more than 10 years ago. I got a temp job in one of the biggest companies of this sort in our state and I was over the moon to get the job straight out of college. I decided to make my mark and I decided to slowly but steadily rise the ranks. And I managed to do so. I kept my head low, I worked the best to my abilities and I constantly honed my skills, learning new skills and working on making myself the best employee no matter the position.
Some people like to say that companies no longer provide you with the chance to advance, especially big companies like that which seem to be automated machines with people instead of cogs and gears. I can tell you that people who say this simply do not try hard enough. I had absolutely no connections inside the company and I managed to climb up the ladder depending on nothing else but hard work.
Three years ago, I got a job in the department that dealt with the biggest clients. I was more than happy to be part of that team which has always been one of the most important ones in the company. Once again, I gave it my best and after less than a year, I was promoted which meant that I will be working directly with the clients. This also meant that I will be having plenty of personal contact with individual clients, that I will be attending dinners and meetings on the top level.
And without realizing it, I became a different person. I became introverted and shy. I could not muster up the courage to speak to the clients and it was all very embarrassing when I think of it. In fact, I don’t even like talking about it. I was constantly anxious and stressed which made my new job a living hell. I remember a particular meeting where I was supposed to be the main guy, really working the client and everything. I just froze. It was as if the guy from ten years ago walked into the meeting, not knowing where to turn and what to say. It was horrible. One of the worst experiences of my life.
I went to see a professional and since behavioral therapy didn’t work, she put me on some anxiolytics. They did away with my anxiety and my shyness, but I found them to be too limiting and too adverse for my health. I would feel sleepy all the time and also dizzy. The medications started affecting the quality of my work and it was simply not working. That is when I found out about oxytocin nasal spray. It was supposed to curb my shyness and my anxiety without any harmful effects and without side effects.
As it turned out, it did exactly that and much more. I found my confidence as my anxiety was gone and my shyness also disappeared. I was my old self again. At the meetings and dinners, I was always the most talkative. I could convince a client that they needed stuff they didn’t actually need. It was amazing. I used it for about three months and after I decided to try it without oxytocin, it turned out that it had permanent effects on me. I no longer need oxytocin although I am positive that it was the only reason why I managed to keep my job.